I hit it and I hit it hard.
But as always, there is a positive to every negative. I have no where to go but up now.
I obviously had to hit the bottom before I could begin to focus and start putting the pieces of my shattered self back together again. I was under such a dark cloud! The storm was extremely destructive - I became someone desperate... wild... careless... and unrecognizable. Was that really me?
How could hitting the bottom make me feel so much better almost immediately? My mind is clear and focused. I feel almost happy and that hasn't been the case for quite awhile.
I look back and it seems like it was all a bad dream - a terrible nightmare. Unfortunately it was all too real. I hurt and worried other people in the process too and for that, I'm truly very, very sorry.
It is time to start taking care of myself and climbing back UP.
